I wish i could pull off her look.  She’s f’ing adorable.

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sometimes when i actually pay attention to the things I do, I realize how pathetic I am.  GREAT.

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Everything is finally falling into place, so perfectly, without any mishaps.  I haven’t been doing much lately but hanging out with the bff and the boyfriend.  We moved out of our old house, my moms ex boyfriend is a complete douche, cheated on her, and kicked us out.  But we’re finally getting settled into our new house, and things are going pretty good.  I’ve cut down on the partying, and I barley even talk to some of the people that I thought were my bestfriends.  Some of them do still check up on me every once in a while, and I appreciate it, a lot.  But, I really don’t see much of anyone.  Emily carey has been the greatest friend of all time, throughout all of my stuggles, and I really appreciate it.  I finally got over my stupid idiot ex, that I thought I cared for, and I’ve found the most amazing person on this fucking earth, dead serious.  He treats me like a princess, and not what you think a princess should be treated like, but what you KNOW a princess should be treated like.  I can honestly say with all of my heart that I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER.  I’m just hoping that in time I’ll get back in touch with all my old friends and become the person I use to be.  But, I am content with the person I am right now.  And I know that my bestfriend and my boyfriend will lead me to the person I am suppose to be.  I am so thankful.  And I know this is all cheesy and stupid and nobody probably cares, but I’m writing this for me, because sometimes when I’m lonley or have nothing to do, I like to look back on the things I wrote, and reminence on my memories, the good and the bad.  But I hope all is well for everyone, because all is welll for me:)

Feburary 20th, 2010.

I love you, more than I have ever loved another.

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I haven’t updated in a while.  My computer is currently broken.  But I just thought I would let everyone know that I am doing a lot better.  And I am a lot happier.  My mom and her boyfriend broke up so we are finally moving out of that hell hole!  And into a new and better environment.  Also, I have a new boyfriend, who is completely amazing.  And I really mean it this time.  He’s super nice, and loves to spend every moment with me.  And I’ve really needed someone affectionate, cause that is what I have been missing.  So I just thought I would update everyone on how I’m doing.  And everything is fine:)

I haven’t been on a lot recently.  I’m currently going through a lot right now.  Emotionally and Physically.  I’ll update soon.

Ps.  Kyle, I’m sorry.  Please just talk to me.

I Haven’t been on here in a while, because I feel like my life isn’t that interesting anymore.  I’m still not talking to “him” and my heart breaks more and more everyday from it.  And I’m seriously, it’s breaking.  This past month has just been a big huge mess, and I regret like 95% of the things I’ve done.  I just wish I could go back, fix my past mistakes and then maybe today would be different, I would be different.  I don’t know, It’s just too hard to explain sometimes.  I’ve been trying to go out as much as possible, and meet knew people.  Cause I know it’s over.  We don’t even talk.  But for some reason in my heart I still feel like theres hope, there is a maybe.  And that’s what keeps me holding on.  I don’t care how long it takes,  What paths I cross,  Who i end up being with along the way, who you end up being with along the way,  Just as long as it all brings me to you in the end.  I hate being young, and I hate being a girl, because I feel so much more than I honestly need to.